Who do you think you are?!

"You done got uppity"...."You think you're so suchy much"..."You're beside yourself"... "You've forgotten where you've came from". All of these statements are from people who are trying to convince you to keep things the way they are. They want you to abide by the "rule" of..."Stay right down here on this level right here". People love to define you by how they MET you but refuse to acknowledge or believe the person that you've evolved into. Don't define me by how you met me because that season is about to pass. Any time a person is finding out their purpose, different things within their spirit are awakened. They start to develop an "eagle eye". The issue comes into play when a eagle like spirit comes into contact with a buzzard or raven type spirit. It clashes. Eagles fly high and have the ability to see things that are ahead from a far distance. A eagle like spirit sees situations through the eyes of faith. They don't reach their conclusion from the physical presentation of things. They operate in the spirit realm of life and often speak on the spiritual side of things. This is a tough position to be in because you often stand alone in your environment. While we are never alone, those feelings threaten because we are often misunderstood and alot of the times disliked both secretly and openly by others. The world does not recognize or understand anything that is not of it. I hope that makes sense. Alot of times, we battle between the desire to fit in and the calling of standing out with God.  The hero in you which is Christ is often tied up by the human in you. We can't learn or begin to FLY as a butterfly if we are constantly limiting and changing ourselves to fit in with the caterpillars we're sometimes surrounded by. I find that some of the things that I used to say and do, once trying to do and say them now, it doesn't feel or sit the same way with me. There is something in me that says its not right to do. Honestly, I sometimes ignore it but later feel extremely guilty. I can't really explain it adequately so I'll just say that it's something that you have to experience for yourself.  I am not where I should be but I definitely am not where I was. For those of you reading this, once you make the decision to try to get on the right track in life, there will be situations and people that try convince you that you really haven't changed or you really aren't serious or you are a fraud. Pay no mind to that. Once you even glance in Christ's direction, he'll hold his arms out and come to you. He is everywhere. Never base your foundation of faith in who you are on PEOPLE'S interpretation of you. Half of the time they don't even know who they are let alone anyone else. Find out what Christ has to say about you. You can't surround yourself with people who have a limited & a carnal mindset and operate in a carnal mindset while you're of a spiritual mindset. They constantly speak fear and you constantly speak faith. There will eventually be a clash of the two. I sometimes find myself hesitating when I write these entries because I sometimes feel like "Who am I to write this stuff" & quite a few reading this know my history but I'm quickly corrected and brought into remembrance by him. There is qoute that he doesn't call the "qualified", he qualifies the called. Moses was a murderer & stuttered. David had an affair. Peter had a temper. Thomas was a doubter. Paul was a murderer. Martha was a worrier. My words to you on today is don't let people's perception and opinion of you stop you from doing what God puts on your heart. I can hold my head up high knowing that God can work through me and on me anytime and anywhere. He has spoken to me while in a club with a glass of hennessy in my hand as well as in the church pew with a bible in the same hand. Some may not be able to handle that thought and some may gain hope. I hope most go with the latter. I am not perfect and never proclaim to be but I do know that there is a giant purpose within me that is starting to awaken and while some may not be pleased or even understand my mindset and actions, he does and that's all that matters. Sometimes God places people in our lives to be "provokers". They are put there simply to push us towards him. He knows that if that friend had remained loyal or if that man/woman had not broken our heart or if that job had not worked our last nerve or if that illness had not come, we would not have humbled ourselves, fell on our face, and urgently seek him like we are doing now. May this find you in high spirits:)

Peace, Love, and Blessings,

Nata Bee
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